Still Here

(My Latest Glamour Shot)

I didn't realize it's been almost 2 weeks since I have posted anything up here. Sorry to all 3 of you who actually read this.

As I mentioned in my last post, we are moving on with life. We have heard about some potential new children that may be coming into the children's home in Liberia. But until a situation comes up that seems like it may be real, we'll just keep our mouths shut and continue praying for God's will.

We are still looking for a buyer for our house. It's been on the market for 2 1/2 weeks and we've had plenty of showings, but no offers yet. We know the right family will come in eventually, it's just a matter of being patient. We do have an agreement on a new house, so we hope a buyer comes in for our current house soon. The new house is pretty cool. It's a little larger than the house we have now, but the great thing about it is the huge yard for all the kids to play in. It also has a very cool barn that is completely finished, heated/ac, electricity, water, cable. It's going to be fun to have a big play area for all of us. I think Wife and I are more excited about that area than the kids are!!

Oh and I have gotten a new job at work. I'm moving from being a developer of one software, to total owner of another application in a whole new group. It's an awesome opportunity that I have been praying for and have talked to the bosses at work about in the past. I'll be moving from a worker bee position to a role that will get me to that next level. More responsibility and more work, but it's another step in the process of growing in a career. I'm really excited. My bosses thought enough of me to hand me this opportunity and responsibility...Hope I don't mess it up :).

But now lets get serious...down to about a week until Opening Day. Go ahead, get all giddy with excitement, I did. Red Sox versus Royals on Monday April 2nd and 4:10 (EST) be sure to set your Tivos!! :) In a few days I'll be writing up my thoughts about going to Fenway park and seeing the Sox play....goose bumps!

Thanks to everyone who sent along well wishes after the adoption fell through. Not really sure who is reading this or who takes an interest, but I really appreciate the family we have back home who keeps up with us. I also thank God for the family He has surrounded us with down here in Mayberry. Without naming names, to my new Brothers and Sister I love you and thank you all for everything. Life this far away from family and friends is so hard, but it's been made so much easier having you all in our lives.

God is Good!

Life Goes On

Well we are moving on with life! Not adopting the 3 kiddos from Liberia still stings and we are still dealing with the feelings involved as a family. But, it's not holding us back. Someday we will look back and see how God used this time to further His kingdom, so for now we just rest in the fact that He is sovereign and in control. I wish it were easy to just remove my human feelings from it all, because I'm still hurt and confused and sad and mad.

I do wonder if those 3 kids going back to their parents is an answered prayer for them. I know I get so hung up on why God is doing this or that to me or my family, when I need to remember it's not all about me and my prayers. God hasn't said to us, "No more kids for you"...He's just said, "Not these 3 kids". Life is such an amazing journey.

So for now we are still attempting to buy a new house and sell our current house. If that all falls though, there will be another "what the trash" post :). We are still gearing up for the next adoption...it'll happen. I've never "known for sure" or "had that feeling" when it comes to kids and adoption, Wife has always had those feelings. I just know God has made me 100% sure we will adopt again. Maybe it won't be 3 more, may not be as soon as we would have hoped for and it may or may not be a baby. Who knows other than God!

Other News:
Please pray for my sister in law, Maureen and her family. She just lost her Mom to cancer and now is going in to have some lumps removed and tested.


And Lastly I ask that while you are praying, to keep all the kids of the world in your prayers. Adoption has really opened my eyes and heart to the fact that so many children are in need and alone.

God is Good my friends....He is Good.

Failed Adoption

Well I'm just going to be short and to the point about this. Our attempts to adopt Augustus, Sando and Musu has failed. Their parents came back, took them from the orphanage and got the courts to reunite them. We are absolutely floored and devastated. You get yourself pumped up, geared up and prepared to change your entire life. Then the rug is pulled right out from underneath you. Words can't even express.

The kids were crushed and I really don't know where we go from here. That is the part I have never handled well, seeing my children and wife cry. Nothing pisses me off more and I feel so helpless this time. I think there is just a whole range of emotions going on for us right now and we will deal with them as a family.

What we do know (or at least think we know) is God brought us this far and we won't quit. But just because we won't quit, doesn't mean adoption is in His plans for us. For now we will regroup as a family and wait to see what situations become available.

God is (still) Good